what is worse ?

what is worse to look at the one you used to love with a look full of hatred, or to look at him but you don't feel anything at all ?

sick of missing you

dear love;
I know you said you want some time. I know i said i'm ok. I know i sent you away to handle your business, but i can't help it. My poor heart is so sick of missing you. I can't handle missing you. It hurts like hell. One moment i'm ok and the other i'm thinking of you. I'm hopeless. I'm pathetic. I'm ugly without you. My eyes are puffy from crying. I cry them out every night. Where are you? why did you leave without goodbye? Yesterday i heard a girl talking to her lover on the phone. I kept a close ear, and told myself what if i had the same chance as her, to talk to you on the phone. You really have no idea how much i long to hear your voice, just one hi is more than enough for you. Why my hands shake this way. I walk everyday and put my hand in the air imagine that you're gonna be just after me and hold it all at once. I miss you, and i can't tell you. I miss you words are exactly what you don't want to hear. But i want you here, i want you near. I'm sick of it. Please rescue me i'm living in a dilemma. Your love is killing my heart... I'm dieing everyday. If your heart is the only medicine that will heal me, are you gonna leave me to die?

regards;
The one who is hopelessly in love with you

أرجوك يا حبيبى متستهونش

أرجوك يا حبيبى متستهونش
خايفة أقول لقلبى دى نسيكى يقوم يتكسر و ميستحملش
طب ليه البعاد يا حبيبى دى أنا قلبى من حبك لسه مشبعش
أرجع يا قلبى لقلب قلبى دى القلب فى بعدك انكوى و متعلمش
مهو عمرى يا عمر عمرى فى بعدك ميتحسبش
و بشوفتك يرتاح قلبى و فى فرحته الدنيا دى متسعش
مأنت النسمة و الهوا و لو على العذاب معلش
و بس ترجع و أشوفك أسامحك على طول و متكلمش
و أتكلم فى أى حاجة مأنا قلبى ما صدق شافك و مسكتش
و أفضل أحكى و أخاف أسكت أنت متتكلمش
بحبك مش قادرة أقولها لك لحسن منى متتقبلش
أقول اشتاقلك تقولى يا ترى ليه؛ يعنى متعرفش
طب دا أنا قالتها و القلب حتى متكبرش
و أنت بتكسر قلبى بالجافا و أقول أنساك لكن مقدرش
مهو حبى ليك عدى حب الحب و مببينش
إرحم قلبى اللى بيحبك... أرجوك ياحبيبى متستهونش

Simply I Miss You :( (latter)

Dear my lovely honey;

I miss you. I know i said it much, and it is losing its meaning, but i can't help it.
I miss you, and i long to your sweet presence.
As much as the flower misses the rain.
As much as the wave longs to the shore, i'm searching for you.
like a crying babie searching for his mum, where are you my dear, i'm dying to see you.
You just left my lonely heart alone. Gone without asking about me.
Why?
You were my sunshine. My star that instructs me.
For you i was ready to lose my compass to find my way into your heart.
I already closed my eyes to see what do you wanna me to see.
I just don't listen to what people say.
I loved being clingy, because it's you the one i miss.

Sometimes i wanted to scream all out of my voice and say where are you.
If you knew how much my hearts is fond with your love you'd not leave me for a second.

I didn't love you for heartache. Already lost my compass, closed my eyes and ears.
Please take my hand and guide me.

And if you are giving up on me, let me know. Just don't chase me if you're not ready to catch my poor heart.

Yours;
The one who is hopelessly misses you the most :(